If Only

Dear Soul

IF Only

I apologize Dear Soul. I was always meant to follow up the first letter with more, but I guess I am human, and intention gets overwhelmed with life. I got swallowed with demands and always found something to do that did not require me to follow my dream. Maybe you can relate to that. I can dream of writing but never do; scared of the reality. If I never try, I will never know and if no-one reads this then Dear Soul, you act as my public diary. You are my first steps and fray into the wide world of sharing who and what I am. I have hidden from my dreams for years.

I have written other letters to you Dear Soul in the first flush of new excitement of a new venture, but never published them. Do you do this too Dear Soul. Do you have other plans you never carry out but remain for one day? I realize at times I try to write to impress instead of from the heart. This letter is from the heart, and I share with you too that I dream and stall, but this letter is my way of moving forward into life instead of staying on the sidelines.

My father (the wise soul he was) left me with wise sayings that I still live my life by. I was only just 22 when he passed but I remember and honor him with the remembrance and embodiment of his wisdom. The one that lives in my heart is “IF is a little word with a big meaning”. (I have written a poem on “IF” I will post it at the end). I have let this wisdom govern my life. No point for regret for what I have or haven’t done because all the wishing in the world will never change it. Recently I have discovered the second side of IF and that is dreams cannot come into being IF we do not allow ourselves to dream. This is all to say I cannot regret what I should have done (should is self-imposed whip) because I haven’t, but I am here now. IF really is a small word with infinite potential.

My father's other wisdom included “never gamble more than you are willing to lose” and “You know what thought did, he planted a feather and thought a rooster would grow”. All sound advice. Wishing is good and has a place, but we do need to act to create. It is alright to go for what you want but understanding the cost helps you to make decisions.

Back to my letter I just wanted to share with you that I am back, and I do care and maybe my letter might make someone smile, feel noticed today or maybe you learn something worthwhile :)

Maybe in sharing my humanness you can see that it is never too late to chase a dream.

I will keep it short today and promise to follow up soon.

Love, light and blessings

Rebecca

xox

The Lovable Self

PS my poem on if

IF

My father told me “IF” is a little word.

It has big meaning way beyond what is understood.

I ponder on his words it has become a part of who I am.

I do not let myself regret.

For actions taken cannot change.

I choose to learn and grow.

Not to make that choice again.

“IF” invites in dreams bigger that I often dare.

“IF” is a little word.

But what power it has!

Written by Rebecca Wilson