Birth of a Soul

A 40 Day Challenge

This is my lived experience of my human design crossed with a Kundalini chant and the following is my embodied results.

Day Twelve

Today I possess more peace. I move with thoughtfulness, taking time with my movement and actions. I have allowed time to slow bringing conscious awareness to my stretches. I start my practice at a slower pace. Today I am choosing to embrace my time chanting. I am settled and comfortable within myself.

The Chant

I felt like a lighthouse today or better still a star in the night spangled sky (I love astrology). Shining and twinkling with the light of the universe. I still do not see but I believe I am drawing the light of the universe down through the crown of my head and out the third eye. I know it is the belief that I am doing this that allows me to be the light. It is seeing myself as a star I am humbled and happy to be part of something greater than me. I feel there are many others out there chanting along with me. Each with their own voice and uniqueness. All together shining a light in the world.

Today is peaceful and this peace allows me to feel the chant in a different way. I see four seed words and 40 days and I wonder does this break down to one seed word for each ten days?

I start to feel the greater cycles of Sa, Ta, Na, Ma (birth, life, death, and rebirth) each with its own cycle building to a crescendo and to release and then in time to rebuild again. The chant is full of cycles working by themselves and within others. The chant allows it all to build up slowly and then release into the next phase. I also feel the smaller cycles each round complete and within a greater round. It is hard for me to capture my thoughts here, but it is each core sound working with the next. It is birthing, breathing life, allowing nature to take its course, after life death follows, a dying away of something only to be rejuvenated and rebirthed into something new. It is like a wave the builds and releases to the ebb and flow, only to do it again and again.

Reflection

The first part of my chant is concerned with birth. To be birthed you need form and a soul graced with life’s potential. In the days leading to birth the physical form is created, and our life’s potential imprinted and embodied. My belief in Numerology, Astrology and Human Design allows me to see this is where the programming of our life comes in. It is here we are gifted with abilities, talents and possibilities that are different to others and belong solely to the self. It is here in this devotional practice that I get to actively work with my human design with a deeper knowing facilitated through chanting. Through human design I know that a core part of me is here to live my belief system. The Kundalini chanting has been allowing it all to rise within me and paring away what no longer serves me. My intention for these 40 days is to find a life of deep equilibrium, harmony, balance, and sense of peace with the ability to act and create this for myself. I know to do all this I must live my values and to be in alignment with the person I came to be.

When I reflect upon the idea that each day of my chanting belongs to a seed sound, I can see that a pattern has been forming in the previous days. In the days leading up to day 12 I have been developing who I want to be and what I want to value. I have been shaping myself, readying myself for life. I have been creating who I want to be in preparation for birth and giving life to the person I am to become. I have developed an awareness of my potential and been working on the ground level of my life. Today I am at a point where life is being breathed into me. Today is the calm before the storm of life.

Card

I draw a card with the intention of “What do I need to know today?” The card that comes forth is the Hummingbird, a herald of joy, hope, love, healing, and resilience. I am intrigued because this marks the third time the hummingbird has drawn my attention in the last few days and hummingbirds are not native in Australia where I live. The first two were notifications that my poem on the hummingbird was enjoyed and now I draw the card. This message has meaning for me.

When I read the book, it reminds me that Hummingbird is “Positive, Enthusiastic, spiritually resourceful.” On further reading it reminds me to nourish the hummingbird through appreciation of nature, exploring my creativity and spirituality.

I feel this is a reminder to stay positive, to keep exploring who I am and what I am capable of. This reminds me to embrace my creative nature and let this feed my soul.

I have nature at my fingertips by living on the land and today my soul has been refreshed and renewed by watching the birdlife. The baby magpies trail their parents’ demanding food. The crows waiting to steal food from the hens and watching them all enjoy the sprinkler on the lawn.

Hummingbird reminds me to embrace life and maybe it is the herald to the next seed sound of Ta (Life) which is waiting for me to explore.

See you tomorrow for day 13.