Birth, Life, Death, and Rebirth (Sa Ta Na Ma)

This is my lived experience of my human design crossed with a Kundalini chant and the following is my embodied results.

Day Six

Today the practice has moved beyond the physical. It felt different. My body relaxed more than ever into the pose. It appears my body approves of the stretches before and after the chant. My body is happy to have a voice, to be heard and honored. My ability to act and to compromise is appreciated.

I have done rounds of 40, 90 and 120 days of chanting before, but none have felt like today. Today it was like the meaning of the seed words were sinking deep into me.

My understanding of my practice is that by combining my mudra with a chant I am calling in the following:

· Sa and Mudra call upon the planet Jupiter and concepts of knowledge, wisdom, and Birth.

· Ta and Mudra speak to the planet of Saturn and ideology of patience, and Life.

· Na and Mudra brings in the Planet/Luminary the Sun, energy, and death.

· Ma and Mudra activates the planet of Mercury, communication, and heralds’ rebirth and rejuvenation.

These are my understanding of the chant and for some reason I really want Sa to be life, and it takes me awhile to get the order of Birth, Life, Death, and Rebirth in order. It makes me realize that I am asking the universe for a new start, a new life and for that to happen I must be willing to release the old. Letting what is not serving me die. Leading to rebirth and new hope. In turn there is new wisdom, patience to sort and sift and the energy I need to communicate what I want. It is the perfect circle of life. For the first time I am on the very edge of beginning to understand what this could mean.

Today my chant in the final stanza created a body vibration that started in my solar plexus chakra and settled into the heart. It was beautiful. It was peaceful. I am grateful for the experience.

Card Draw

Today’s practice I felt was enough and I considered not pulling a card. I deliberated and decided that I would and what I wanted answered would be “What is my next step in creating the life I want?”

The Raccoon was the card that flipped over as I shuffled while I considered the question. I thought about putting it back, but my rule is (especially with a one card draw) that what comes out is the answer, whether I understand it or want it. Another thing I am learning to trust and surrender to is that I cannot control what card will come forth.

The first words I read “Raccoon — Talented, shadowy, in hiding”, “Raccoon energy won’t let us off the hook until creative ego fear is resolved” and then I read “Unresolved issues around self-image and success.” I know these are issues that I am currently working on with my mentors. Now it looks like it is time for me to face them head on.

I feel the Raccoon card is asking me to recognize and step into my creative potential. To take the time to explore what this means for me without limiting who I am. I am being asked to explore what talents I may or may not have. It asks me to step out of the shadows, to stop hiding. It is asking me to face my fear of not being enough and fearing my work is substandard. Life wants me to take a chance and see what is out there for me. To embrace the creativity that lives within me.

I do feel that I hide within the shadows feeling safe and unseen. I am watching from afar wishing I were brave enough to have a go.

The Raccoon is tenacious and happy to share helping me to develop my talents and skills. What I do not do can never get better, can never be mastered.

Raccoon’s last word of wisdom is to be generous, to create new work and share with others.

Conclusion

I can see that it is by sharing my journey that I am taking the chance to develop and hone my skills with words. Words are my choice (for now) as my creative tool. In doing this daily I am also giving myself the chance to get to know me. I am sitting in the co-pilot seat with the universe shaping myself to be who I desire to be in this life.

I am classifying taking the action of publishing my writings each day as the proof that I am successful. If someone reads this and enjoys my journey it warms my heart. If no one reads this I am still successful, I have faced one of my fears and published anyway.

I have a history of receiving great insights then sitting on the couch waiting for the world to find me. Playing safe in life is natural as breathing. This is the time for me to change life up and do it differently.

See you tomorrow for day 7.